Begin

I used to really like to write here. It's been years since I last posted, but somehow due to the beauty (horror?) of the internets, this place still exists, I can log in, and not surprisingly, it's apparently part of Google. I actually stumbled upon this place after leaving a comment on another blog and was sort of automatically logged into the profile, thought, "oh yeah! paper thin walls!", and began thinking about giving it a go.

So this is where I'll begin.

It's been a year of beginnings, or endings, or whatever the hell we're supposed to call it when life throws you for a hell of a loop and you eventually find yourself on your feet, not entirely steady but not entirely broken. You figure out how everything goes again in this new life where some things feel so completely NEW and then you alter the view and think some things have never changed. Everyone has probably been there at some point, and to differing degrees and I have no doubt that I'll be feeling some kind of beginning again and again. Life. That's just what it does, whether we like it or not.

I'm not entirely certain what direction to take this, but I am trying not to over-think it, because really NO ONE is out there, I'm not sure I want to tell folks this is even reincarnated, and also because it is a blog for pete's sake. But I also don't want to put myself in a box of sorts because I think maybe writing will be a very useful thing and I want to do everything I can to encourage any and all good that comes from this. I need a little more good in my life - and I'm pretty damn sure that it's gonna have to just come from yours truly.

I also don't want to use this an another form of procrastination when piles of reading and homework and paper-writing are looming as I wrap up my final year of grad school. That's right, 262 days from now (who's counting? I AM!) I shall have a piece of paper declaring my ability to master a subject that I wasn't even sure I could define 10 years ago, hell, probably even 6-7 years ago. It's going well, I could be doing better and putting more effort into it. I've got a lot of excuses as to why I haven't, but I feel like I can rationalize a little too well and that energy would be better utilized, oh, I don't know, actually studying!

So there we are. Back to the blogosphere. A tiny little speck I am. Which is just fine with me.