I may be losing it.

I have been trying to start my PAGES and PAGES of reading this afternoon for about an hour now. I did everything I could do that didn't involve reading for homework, and now I need to hunker down. But for whatever psychotic reason, I can't concentrate. I just spent way too long completely emptying out my backpack and looking at all my folders and stuff because I can't find my little tab things I use to mark my pages, and for whatever dumb reason, I can't concentrate on reading unless I can mark my page with them like a nutcase or something.

I'd blame it on too much caffeine, but I only had a cup of coffee and half a bottle of tea. That's nothing. In fact, making coffee right now sounds wonderful, but I am afraid it will make me even more insane.

I also can't stand sitting on my crappy futon trying to read for long periods of time. It's moments like this that I consider just going into debt and ordering up a fancy-schmancy Crate and Barrel couch. And white-glove delivery is only $69. But luckily I have amazing self-restraint. I have been coveting that damn thing for about a year. I keep telling myself I have to wait until I graduate and get a real job, and can afford to pay it off quickly, or even save and pay cash.

Either way, I seem to have major problems getting into a studying routine. I'm distracted by everything right now. I've got to get over it.