Does that thing really say 16 days?

I am so not even close to being ready to leave for Ireland. Well, I take that back, I am really ready to leave work, but that's about it, and that goes without saying.

Honestly, I have barely begun to think about packing and buying stuff I need (which is probably more than I realize, and of course I love to procrastinate), and I am really not ready to leave my apartment (it's a mess), my family (I leave the day before my mom's birthday, and come home 5 days after the twin's), my friends (I am missing one major wedding, seeing the BFF over July 4th, as well as whatever random summer fun times everyone will be having), and Andrew (um, 31 days without seeing my boyfriend? NOT a happy thought).

So.......I guess I am in denial. And I need to get it together real soon, because I work 10 of the 16 days I have left, and there is another wedding on one of the days off, and I pretty much pissed away my afternoon today after getting home around 3. I could have gone shopping, been cleaning, doing laundry, or scanning all of my paperwork to get ready, but instead I messed around online, did a little bit of paperwork, and watched a moving Dateline (yeah, for real) about a mission in Afghanistan and cried.

I wish I could be more excited for this trip, but to be honest, I am scared to death of flying that far, and it feels like I will be gone forever. I am afraid I won't take enough pictures or do well in my classes (my self-confidence is pretty much shot after a shitty performance this past semester), and that I will get sick from the food or drinking and just be miserable.

I know it's a good experience. Hell, that's why I signed up in the first place (however, the person who signed up was a bit more defiant-and single, than the girl I am today). But it's really really really expensive, and I am just stressed. I suppose I should try and get some more stuff done before heading out to the airport to pick up Andrew...first thing I need to do is probably balance my checkbook. The last thing I want is to be completely overdrawn in a foreign country. And knowing me, well, it could happen.